i feel so lost with out u now ..i have lost the other half of me u when u went away i cant move on . i will never ever for get u u made me soso happy darling i miss ur cheeky grin its father s day to morro so i am light ng a candle for and the boys r get ng ur cards i will come on and talk to u later love u xxxhelen

hi john its 5 week s now that u went away i am really not handle ng it at all i miss u so much i wish i could b up there with u but that will not happen i wish u told me u where going to leave me that why u made sure we had a drink the nite b fore .. xxx

hi john i have got zakieboy kyle and rian well steven and karl have them . have had another bad day to day i am find ng it very hard in come ng to term with u going . its like the song if i could turn back the had s of time i would if only u can u would b here with me darl ng .. all i do is the min i open my eyes i cant stop cry ng i am a complete mess john i will always love u helen xxxx