hi john its only been 2weeks and 4 days since u went away and it hurts so much ? i know it was ur time and it us that r left be hind that r hurt ng i love and miss u i know u r still here in my thought and in my heart the boys r hurt ng as well but they have been so good they r look ng after me i just cry all the time ? i have new s for u i had to go to the council to sign and new mandate. the house is in my name now they did say i could move if i wanted but i said no as all my memorys of u r here . so i am going to stay where iam till its time for me to come up b side u 1 day . u r my guardine angel now i know u r watch ng over me john wen u went away i left a candle bur ng for u all night i for got 2 blow it out wat did u always say must put candles out incase of fire so thank u for that darl ng i have to ajust to be ng on my own with out u but it is very hard norma and derek have phone d to check how i am doing . norma took it hard wen u left us well john i am away will talk to u to morro love u for ever xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx